Clary sat on her bed, shock covered her face and ran through her body. She felt numb and alone, her whole life had been turned upside down in a week. Not even bothering to change into her pajamas she turned off her light and curled into a ball on her bed.
Her mother, missing.
Luke, didn't want anything to do with her.
Simon, was more than angry. She was alone with strangers, and Jace had gone back to being his normal arrogant, sarcastic self.
Sighing she rolled over and tried to get some sleep, willing herself not to think about that kiss of all things.
It had been three hours and still sleep was out of reach. Clary had counted every crack on the roof, every line on the floor over and over. Deciding that she couldn't take it anymore she got out of bed. After changing into her pajama shorts and singlet she wanted a walk. Needing to clear her mind she began wandering the halls of the institute. So deep in her thoughts Clary hadn't even realised where she was headed until she was standing in front of Jace's room. Unsure what to do next she placed her hand on his door and stood there for a moment as if it could bring her closer to his touch. Squeezing her eyes shut she turned and ran back down the hall. She kept running until she found the stairs to the greenhouse, quietly she climbed up them. Walking through silently she found Hodge had left. She sat where she had been just a few hours ago and let it all out.
Jace hadn't been able to sleep. He heard the slow approaching footsteps and saw the movement under his door. He held his breath hoping whoever it was would think he was asleep and leave him alone. He had a pretty good idea who but was determined not to respond. It was crazy how one girl could have such an effect on him. Every time he saw her, his heart beat faster. All he wanted to do was hold her close, to protect her. After a moment the figure moved and began running away, the footsteps grew fainter.
Jace jumped out of bed and opened his door but she was gone. Unsure why he began to follow her. When he reached the greenhouse steps he hadn't been able to clear his thoughts of Clary. Knowing that Hodge would be in bed by now he just wanted to see her. When he entered the greenhouse he froze, there was a quiet sobbing noise coming from inside. He spotted Clary lying where they had their picnic, she was shaking and tears rolled of her pink cheeks. He walked over to her,
"Let me guess-" Jace started in a sarcastic voice. She looked up then turned away quickly but not before he saw the hurt on her face. He stopped talking and sat down next to her, as he realised she really was really hurting.
"Clary?" He whispered, stroking her hair. "Are you OK?" She looked up at him and he saw the heartbroken look on her face. It broke his heart to see how much pain she was in, especially since it was his fault. Clary just stared up at him, her sobbing had stopped but tears kept falling. He held her as if he could take away all her pain and suffering onto himself.
"Jace." She whispered in a shaky voice, "What are you doing?". He looked into her eyes, what was he doing? To love was to destroy. Yet Jace couldn't let Clary go, he should have left then but instead he held her tighter.
"I don't know." He whispered, his voice slightly uneven. He tried to gain control but let his guard down the instant she leaned up and kissed him. It was soft and sweet and caught him by surprise.